2 Chronicles 2:18 5 So the king of Israel brought together the prophets—four hundred men—and asked them, “Shall we go to war against Ramoth Gilead, or shall I not?” “Go,” they answered, “for God will give it into the king’s hand.” 6 But Jehoshaphat asked, “Is there no longer a prophet of the Lord here whom we can inquire of?” 7 The king of Israel answered Jehoshaphat, “There is still one prophet through whom we can inquire of the Lord, but I hate him because he never prophesies anything good about me, but always bad. He is Micaiah son of Imlah.” The messenger who had gone to summon Micaiah said to him, “Look, the other prophets without exception are predicting success for the king. Let your word agree with theirs, and speak favorably.” 13 But Micaiah said, “As surely as the Lord lives, I can tell him only what my God says As I read this story I could not help but to laugh. I laughed because I though about how the world talks about Gods people. Holy rollers, Holier than thou, bearers of bad news the list goes on and on. The king of Israel Ahab did not fear the lord. Because of this he made his own demise. The king literally hated Micaiah the prophet because no matter what went on around him he declared that he would only say what God says, nothing more nothing less. And for this act he was thrown into prison, hated and despised by the king. So what does this action teach us? No matter what obstacle we are faced with, no matter what trials and tribulations come our way, in everything we do we must look to God for an answer. When the answer is given we must go forth and preach it throughout the world. God has no respect to persons therefore a king is no better than a peasant. But those who fear the lord when they call on him shall be saved. No matter what names they call us. It’s all good. I would rather be called the worst for God’s sake than the best of the world!

I was reading the book of 1st chronicles chapter 16 verse 7 and I read David's first palms to the lord. The first thing he did was give Thanks. Today I have a lot of anxiety’s and worries however, I am giving Thanks through all circumstances and situations. There was a time in which I related no matter what it looks like God is in control. David is gone in the physical realm but his spirit lives on in me. I will bless the lord at all times and his praise shall continually be in my mouth. When I look around at all the things I do love. I am reminded of my first love and ultimately my true love. He loved me beyond my faults, looked pass my wants directly to my needs. For this I am thankful. At the end of the Psalm Saul’s daughter looked upon David with contempt just as our enemies look upon us in our trials but yet we continues to pray through them all. I WILL BLESS THE LORD!

Wow, it’s been almost two years and so much has transpired. I can only say that "I have come this far by faith leaning on the lord trusting in his holy he never failed me yet" I was reading the book of Deuteronomy. In particular two things struck me:
28:13 And the LORD shall make thee the head, and not the tail; and thou shalt be above only, and thou shalt not be beneath; if that thou hearken unto the commandments of the LORD thy God, which I command thee this day, to observe and to do them

28:15 But it shall come to pass, if thou wilt not hearken unto the voice of the LORD thy God, to observe to do all his commandments and his statutes which I command thee this day; that all these curses shall come upon thee, and overtake thee.

I believe we serve a great big wonderful God because we ourselves can be our worse enemies. But the lord has been better to us than we have been to ourselves even when we go astray. As our keeper he continues to watch over us. I believe that there is no greater punishment than the punishment of looking at yourself in the own mirror and realizing that we are the ones who caused our own demise. God had nothing to do with it. In the bible it states in Romans 1:24 so God abandoned them to do whatever shameful things their hearts desired. As a result, they did vile and degrading things with each other's bodies.

At times the best thing to do is give a person over to themselves. The hardest thing to do is to look in the mirror and realize that it’s your fault. God is able to heal us. He is one who cannot lie. I pray for my healing and the worlds! Amen

"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 (NIV)

I have been going through some situations and at the end of the day God has said in his word that his GRACE is sufficient for me. This morning I was meditating and talking with God about my situations. I related that when we think why me? God is saying why not? It’s so easy to walk around professing holiness when things are all good. These past couple of years, I have been experiencing trail after trial tribulation after tribulation. All I can think to myself is “God I long to be where you are” Paul said to count it all joy and that I do. Every test keeps me in prayer.
The man or woman of God should always be in constant communication with the father. Jesus was in constant communication with his father on earth. Communication is key, in any relationship. With out it a break down will occur in the relationship. Many times things are misinterpreted due to lack of communication.
In our infirmities and weaknesses we are made stronger in the lord. WHY? Because we depend on him, we learn to trust him, when there is no where else to turn we give utter and complete control of our lives over to him. At times we question why should I be God Like to him or her when if given the chance they would stab me in the back? Why should I forgive over and over when if I make a mistake I am ridiculed and cast down by the enemy’s children? My answer is how can there be a difference if it does not start with you? (Gods chosen)
God knows our struggles, he knows our issues, and with every test we are stronger and stronger. Not by our will but his. HIS POWER REST ON ME. If it was not true he would no say so. So when trails and tribulation attack count it all joy let the enemy know "That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong! Amen

Romans 5:1-5 Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our LORD Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

I was reading "Our Daily bread" and this scripture struck me in regards to these key words Faith, Sufferings, and perseverance, Character, and Hope. I can say that faith is what we need to please God. Nothings more, nothing less, the bible states that it is impossible to please him with out it. There is nothing that you can do or say that will gain you access into the kingdom. It does not matter what it looks like or how hard the trial, there is nothing impossible for our God. What you may feel is impossible God is saying “Is that all you have my child". I must admit when you are going through it feels as if your an ant in a world full of giants. But the bible relates that all you have to have is faith the size of a mustard seed. Faith, in the lord Jesus Christ who died for the sins of many. Sufferings, because as a child of God not only do you suffer for righteousness sake but you also experience suffering for those who are closest to you. Perseverance, to be able to bear difficulties without complaints. This shapes our character in regards to accepting what comes our way and bearing witness that God will come through.

Good or Bad. If we can praise him our happy moments we should be able to praise him in tough times. In addition, we hope that when all is said and done our savior will return and gather his elect. That we will wear a golden crown, the belief that in my father’s house are many mansions filled with his Glory. I am praising him in advance that although I may stumble my God will catch me. There is no place I can fall that he will not be able to reach. Amen

Acts 20:24
²⁴However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace.

In the book of Acts Paul endures many afflictions and hardships. The Bible indicates many are the afflictions are the righteous. Psalm 34:19. So, for the sake of our lord and savior Jesus Christ we too will suffer many things for his name sake. In turn we will seek the lord because of ourselves, we can do nothing. The heights and depths to which God will take us, removes us from this worldly angle of things. There is no physical explanation that can comfort us. We face these trials not in our own defense but in the defense of a kingdom in which we will suffer many things. And yet we our selves are defenseless. We continue to place our faith and trust in a savior who is the first to be raised from the dead. The first to rise and claim victory from the grips of death. The first to take back what the enemy stole from Gods People. Matthew 16:18-19. However, even the enemy cannot take what God has not given him permission to take.

I find myself living and walking in the Grace that God has given to me freely by the blood that was shed for my sins. At this moment I am going through a stronghold. A stronghold that surpasses what I have been taught. In essence, it contradicts the teaching of my youth. I recognize the charge that has been placed on my life from the womb. To preach the Gospel to all nations even unto the four corners of the earth. Yet, there is weaknesses in my life that only God can help strengthen me. I have tried to fight it on my own and lost emotionally. I recognize the mess that I have made. The door that I have opened and now I am praying for strength to walk through this door. More so than facing what is on the other side of the door, is the mirror that reflects who and what I am. In this walk I have learned not to judge others. The very day that you judge you will be judged. How can God be a deliverer if you have never been delivered from anything?

Emotionally I am guilty of love. And because of love, I would rather a soul be saved than to live in hell for an eternity. I pray the love of God will help me dismiss this affection and to press forward into the high calling that God has called me to do. Although the flesh will decease the work must continue. This is my desire that God’s will be accomplished until the day of his (Jesus) return.

Eleanor

One day one of My friends made a comment her words were "I hate when people find God and forget where they came from I wondered about the last words "when people find God" Do people really find God our does God find us. If you really think about it we never really lost God. He knows exactly where you are. You may think that you are lost but, he knows where you are. God is waiting for you. God will go down into the depths to retrieve his people. All you have to do is believe. God does not need us. We need him. A true christian needs God like humans need air. I was beat down so hard this these past two weeks. That I screamed to my father HELP ME PLEASE.

As big as you are GOD sometimes I forget that there is nothing to hard for you. There is nothing impossible for you. I have a recipe for success, I got one part Holy spirit who lives in me, One part Jesus who died for me, yet even when my flesh dies my spirit lives, and a father that has prepared a place for me. Not to mention I don't have to fight physically his very word will defeat all of my enemies. Those Walls come tumbling right down. To be lost you would have had to be with your owner from the start. God does not lose us we stray from him. If we repent with a true heart and change from ways that are not pleasing to him. He is sure to forgive us. Jesus is sure to forgive us. God is sure to forgive us. I am so Glad God found me! I was lost But no I am found!