I was reading the book of Malachi I discovered that the lord gives warning to those he loves. The lord gave warning to Israel to change their ways. The lord wanted Israel to repent for their ways. I think about Backsliders and how the lord wants them to change and see the error of their ways the lord also wants us in his will to change as well to adhere to the responsibilities god has placed upon us. It is easy to go along with the crowd not so much because you want to but it is a place of comfort. We don't like to feel uncomfortable when someone moves us out of our comfort zone we become uneasy. I f everyone wears green why should I be different by wearing yellow why should I make myself a target of stares and humiliation this world can be so cruel . Jesus said if they condemned me they will condemn you. I know that is most definitely right. To talk the talk is one thing but to walk in the spirit is another. Endurance and persarverance are words to live by. Reading your word is essential but nothing is more important in my life then the relationship I have with God. It feels me up it sustains me. It keeps my feet planted on solid ground. Praise God I am free!

Today From the start what not a good day for me. I started the day upset only to be reminded that I have control over nothing. I was overwhelmed with sorrow due to circumstance. After I prayed to God to deliver me out of my circumstance I read a chapter in the book of Psalms which comforted my heart. When sorrow comes our way we have to meditate on the things that God has promised us. We have to read the word. What good is a soldier without his weapon. I send out a prayer to all the soldiers of Gods army. Build a closer relationship with God.

I was reading the book of Matthew and thinking on how Jesus was betrayed. Not by strangers but by one in his own circle of "trustworthy" disciples. It makes me think that trouble does not come from far away most of the time it starts right in the inner circle. Namely those around you those you see everyday. I am learning that the devil will use anybody friends, spouses, people on our job. I have been struggling with my job for a while now had it not been for Jesus by my side I am most certain they would have fired me along time ago. My spirit tells me to leave it in my fathers hand all of my issues. Continue to make my needs known through prayer. How can you break the spirit? by using those close to us by making things as uncomfortable as they can be so that we can lose faith. Little does Satan and his workers know that Gods people are never in a comfort zone in this world. Gods people must have enmity with the world to be of God but don't listen to me read your bible. I feel like I have a thorn in both sides but when God is for you who can dare be against you. I am anointed and blessed and I will live each day accordingly. I have learned to let God fight for me. Put on the armor of God. I have learned to fight the spirit with the spirit. Putting my request to God by prayer. I pray and secret so that God can show his majesty and power outwardly in the open. God is a amazing. God who will never forsake or leave us even when it feels like he has. Even through my trials I will serve the lord.